No Take Backs

I cannot take back a year in a body cast at an age no teen should feel so trapped and alone.

I cannot take back time lost to the darkest of my depression.

I cannot take back sanity lost to hormones of a failed infertility journey.

I cannot take back three losses that stole a lifetime of dreams.

None of it punishment or what I deserved.

Hell, many days I do not believe it all happened for a reason.

Simply my life, my past, my story.

Fighting to take back from it pieces of myself.

Weaving those pieces into the fabric of what I must carry with me always.

Allowing the no take backs to no longer define all of who I am.

Choosing how I am changed.

Rising ever upward.

Shining bright the no take backs of who I have become.