Looking at me with the spark in her eyes that I have missed so much, she leans forward and says,
I think I have finally realized that I have to surrender and obey.
Or we don't.
Some days I muster up everything I have and white knuckle my way through these choices because I have to, my happiness (aka sanity) depend on it.
Other days I truly enjoy making these choices and don't have to put much thought into them.
Years into this journey, along with these words from my client, I have come to realize that the choice to practice recovery, to live a life that is happy, healthy and engaged, is more about surrender and obeying.
I must surrender to the fact that only so much is in my control. And, most of all, I must obey what is required to live the life I want.